A glimpse of Glory

I've never experienced anything more supernatural than the time I held Nziiza in my arms, it was absolutely heavenly and surreal.
At the time it was almost like a dream but indeed I saw Jesus, I touched Him just holding my little baby. It is not an encounter that can be retold to effect in as much as it is an experience to be felt.
Sam and I partnered with God in creating this beautiful child, Nziiza was God's to start with and provided another opportunity for us to share in creation, to have a supernatural encounter with the maker Himself.
I believe that God wanted us to meet with Him period, that was Nziiza's purpose, brief but powerful.
Children are a gift from God and He grants them to us as stewards, he decides how long we will have them and there is no denying the impact they have on us as parents, guardians, sisters, nephews and what ever other capacity they assume in our lives.

The morning after Nziiza left, the song that was on my heart was,
"Oh it is Jesus, yes it is Jesus
It is Jesus in my soul,
For I have touched the hem of His garment
And His blood has made me whole".

Children are God's vessels of ministry and communication to us, we should be very careful the way we handle them.

Yesterday evening I was taking a walk in the park after putting Mich to bed, I was talking to God and telling Him how I was looking forward to seeing His blessings out of this and guess what He told me?, my love and devotion should not be dependent on what He is going to do for me because then my love is not genuine. I need to love Him regardless of whether or not He blesses me and my was that a hard teaching or what?!
The perfect reminder that I'm not my own but His and my life is meant to bring Him glory and not the other way around.
Lord, total surrender is really hard, I don't know how to love you unconditionally but I'm willing to learn, please teach me how.